Taylor

Days like today make me so grateful that I have someone who loves me by my side.
I'm not one to express how I feel to others, but I've never loved anyone quite like you before. When I met you i had no idea that you would mean so much to me, I never saw my life this way, but i wouldn't change a thing. I love you, i love the way you look at me, I love the way your hand holds mine, I love how you're not afraid to be yourself and you don't let anyone tell you different, I love how once you put your mind to something you are determined to finish it, I love how your eyes light up when you're talking about something you love, I love the way you talk about little Myles and how excited you get when we talk about the future, i love everything about you.
We fight, we're stubborn, we sometimes don't agree on everything, but i wouldn't change the time I spend with you, even when we're driving eachother insnane, for anything else. I'd take you over anyone anyday.
I'm sorry sometimes I get fustrated and these pregnancy hormones get the best of me at times, or I cry for absolutely no reason at all, I'm picky and i like to complain, a lot. I'm nowhere near perfect, but thank you for having patience with me, and loving me with all these flaws.
I'm excited for our future together, I'm excited to raise our son together, to live and grow with you, im excited to see where this life takes us, i love you Taylor Bengry. I really do.

18 W

I love this sweet little baby of mine, the bigger the bump gets, the bigger he gets.
This week has been the most emontional week so far of this pregnancy. One day I'm in tears crying because I'm overthinking things, the next I'm angry and pissed off at the world. Then on a few rare moments I'm beyond happy and everything seems ok, but i feel like those moments are slowly dissapearing. The worst part of everything is that I've taken out all these feelings on my best friend, and i feel like I'm slowly losing him, which is the worst feeling in the world to feel.
I hope I can get over this emontional roller-coaster in this next week so I can feel better about everything and hopefully patch up some things with the people I love the most.

Firsts

Today was a first for me. Today I felt little Myles moving inside me for the first time!  It was such an odd but exciting feeling, at first I thought I was getting nervous and i was getting that butterfly feeling in my stomach, but when it happened later in the day for a second time I realized that I was feeling my little boy inside me moving around, and i couldn't contain my excitement. I probably told all the kids in my preschool class, but they're all 1 so I'm sure they don't understand a word I'm saying most the time haha but I had to share!
Today was an amazing day (:

Sugar & Pizza

Week 17: I can't hide my bump anymore haha he's growing and i can feel my body changing with him. I am constantly craving sugar and pizza. I ate pizza for 2 days straight because it was the only thing I could keep down, but I'm not complainin (; Pants still fit me right now but I'm more comfortable in leggings or sweats. I always feel the need to sleep, even when I get 8 + hours of sleep a night, but i think my body's just trying to adjust. I have a Dr's appointment tomorrow to check and make sure he's doing ok and that everything's normal, nervous but excited to hear that little heartbeat!

Spent the weekend in Yellowstone with Taylor, and it was amazing. It was very cold at nights, but he made sure that we were always warm. He's kinda amazing and I'm grateful to have him with me throughout this whole new adventure!

Myles

It's a boy!
16 weeks & feeling a little nauseous,  mostly at nights, but we're still craving cherry coke and doughnuts and chilis chocolate molten cake. Showing a little baby tummy, (don't mind my messy bathroom) I'm actually starting to feel being pregnet, it's weird and such an amazing experience!